His Way, Not Mine

I realized
what my heart is capable of.

I can love you,
pray for you,
and still choose
to move forward
with my own life.

I have come to a point
where I no longer know
what else I can do.

I’ve said what I needed to say,
I’ve loved in the ways I know how,
and I’ve held on for as long as I could.

And maybe now,
the only thing left for me
is to surrender everything
to the Father Almighty.

Not because
I’ve stopped believing
in what could happen,

but because
I’ve finally accepted
that not everything
is mine to decide.

I’m still around.
I’m not going anywhere.

I will continue to care,
to wish you well,
and to remember you
in my prayers.

But this time,
I don’t want to force
the energy anymore.

I don’t want to keep reaching
for something that needs two people
to make it work.

I want to give you
the freedom to choose,
just as I am learning
to give myself
the freedom to live.

And if our paths
are meant to meet again,
I hope we’ll find each other
in a better place,
with hearts that are ready.

But if they don’t,
I will still be grateful
for everything
I was able to feel.

For now,
I’ll leave what I cannot control
in God’s hands.

I’ll keep loving
in the ways that I can,
without forgetting
that I have a life
to live, too.

And whatever comes next,
I’ll trust Him enough
to let it happen
His way,
not mine.